this is it. this is ultimately the hardest semester i have ever had. i'm so tired and drained and troubled that it's not funny anymore. it's not something i can even smile about. even when i'm resting, i feel tired. I have not slept well since i got back from Christmas break and i'm not even doing well in school. yes, i'm failing. and i'm not liking it. it has gotten to a point that i just want to jump off a building (this is sometimes literal, but sometimes it also means just let go of everything and fail -- fail which i am already doing!!!). To think, training hasn't even resumed. Am i going to live through this?
oh dear God, i am soooooo tired.
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aneka, love! don't. with the rate of actual ateneo suicide attempts, i can't handle another one. DX i miss training. it was kind of a stress reliever.
and i miss you too. :D
You can do it! I know it is hard, but you will most likely surprise yourself in the end. Only a couple more months to go! Remember the cheerleader here in San Mateo! Ra Ra Ra...YOU CAN DO IT!
But if you need it, you might want to take a mental health day to organize yourself. I am not sure how Ateneo handles attendance, but think about it if you are REALLY STRESSED.
darlings to all those who cared and left a message. i know i know i know... i know i can do this. and thank you so much for being behind me in this struggle i'm having.
lari: i miss you too. and yes, i think sometimes training could be a stress reliever, but you can't relieve if you're too tired to begin with.
Aunt GG: love you so much for always being there for me. you're always cheering me on and i'm very very thankful for it. I think i mave just taken that day you were suggesting. Didn't need to skip class because it's the weekend. although i'm still scared of going back to the reality of all the stress. but now that i look at it, i know i can get through this. i just hope i can do it with good enough grades. that all that i'm worried about actually, my grades. so yeah, i'm okay miloves. i'm not going to jump off anything just yet. :)
glad to hear you're not going to jump dearest!! Whatever happens, just don't do anything I would do...hehehehhee love you baby girl.
YOU CAN DO IT!!
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