you fill my chest with such strength it seems that you would burst me open. you beat, from the inside, always wanting to get out. i have to remind myself to breathe - inhale, exhale - just to keep you in. stay in tune. I turn my eyes to the ceiling, clutch my hands to my chest, and slowly release the tension buliding up within me. silent scream. loosen up...loosen up. i close my eyes to feel the air around me, the static and heat of the sun or the cool wind and wet spray of rain. whichever. tune out. think things over. what is it that i want? what is it that i want? let go. i want to let go. relaxed and a bit numb my lips move with such freedom. they move in a way i did not think possible. slowly carefully they open and close. i don't hear anything but each time it reveals a part of my soul, my inside, myself. revealing things that are not exactly supposed to be revealed. my inner thoughts my inner dreams my eternal wants my deep desires. my mind races. thinking of ways to make you stop. halt. enough. but you wouldn't. you wouldn't let me be. it seemed like an eternity. drained and unsure, i turn and walk away. in silence... the beating stopped. nothing pounds within my chest. you found your way out. and now the world knows about it.
and i remain
naked.
