there are just some things that you can't control...for example: the world that spins on its axis, the occassional coincidences, the beating of your heart, the escaping giggles, the blushing smiles you sport when your crush passes by... but there are some things that you can control. yes, there are. but sometimes, even if you can control them, you just can't seem to bring yourself to do so. Think of it this way...you want to do something so badly or you just really want to be able to do something...yet you can't. you don't know why...you just can't. there's something internal holding you back...something you can't really pinpoint or explain. it's just there...holding you back...a void you can't place, an invisible barrier blocking your path. you try and try to break free of this unseen thing...but sometimes it gets tiring...you just want to let it be. you forget of what you really wanted to do in the first place.
it's a good thing that there are such things as special moments. special moments that amazingly make the unknown disappear and make the seemingly impossible possible... special moments that come on such rare occassions but are cherished so dearly.
why does it have to this way? why does it happen only when it's under the influence of something special? never does it occur on its own. i so want it to happen on its own...to have it practically everyday. i don't know what's holding me back. yet here it is...another day of being inebriated...again...
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